Johnny Clinn (jc123youandme) wrote in gayromantics,
Johnny Clinn
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Onegai...

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"I stand here, holding myself...

Please... I just wanna learn to smile."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~'


NO MORE FEAR ~ONEGAI~
Written by John Christopher Clinton

It's hard imagining
the sun on a distant day, rising.

I stand here, holding myself
No where else to go.
Waiting, 'til I fail;
Waiting, to be proven right.

It's so hard trying to imagine...

I truly am capable.
I truly am, loveable.
I truly am going to make it.
If I try, there will be enough time
to breathe, and play, and dream.

Memories lie at times
to keep my heart together.
Listening

Waiting for the sound,
The calling;
Waiting to give in and make it;
Waiting, to truly live.

It's so very hard realizing...

No matter if I cry,
No matter if I want...
If I don't try I won't make it.
If I don't, there won't always be
a chance, a dream, a memory.

I stand here, holding myself
as the tears fight back.
Paralyzed; No where to go;
Waiting for that moment...

on a far off distant day.

When I will shine.
When I won't cry.
When I, truly, can try;
Giving my heart, the time it needs
to breathe, to play and dream,

to not be afraid, anymore please.

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everlasting heartbreak
Written by John Christopher Clinton

Do you remember even now
all the little lies I told?
Carrying hopes, forgetting them.
You told me once, why is it that I run;
Keeping myself hurt, Living in tears,

It's just easier than, learning to smile...

I know that you know.
You wanna place your hand and heal it.
I know what you want; Where you belong;
At this moment, I reveal myself.
"Are those tears in your eyes?"
Yes. This is me.

Yes. I look away so as not to see...

I was unable to hold my own;
Carrying hopes and thoughts
I should've forgotten.
I didn't come back though,
because I couldn't go on.

Somehow, I believed in what I felt;
Stopping the sorrow, and learning to love...

Who it is I am.
The one you want to give, everything.
I know what you want. I know what you feel.
As of present, I can't love myself that well.
But I face this understanding which...
I can't pull myself away from.

I don't know why it hurts;
How I fix what is broke;
I just wanna go home
and fill what's empty
with what belongs.

I know that you know.
You wanna place your hand and heal it.
Right here; With me here;
I wanna feel complete.
"Are these tears who I am?"
Please. I don't wanna be empty.

Please... I just wanna look your way and smile.

Who is it I am?
I wanna give you everything, everything.
I know that's what I want; Why is it so hard?
At this moment, I can only blame these;
The tears in my eyes, and the emptiness...

Please... I just wanna learn to smile.

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